What's Love Got to do, got to do with it...

Usually Valentine's Day is uneventful. Celebrating out with my hubby is out of the question on a day like this because I hate the rush by all the other couples. So, we usually stay in and I make something that everyone loves for dinner.

This year......Chicken Asparagus Stir Fry

Requested by: My son who wants to use his chop sticks.

I'm not posting the dinner.

But I did make some homemade marshmallows this morning. Pink to be exact.

The whole process is wonderful. I love making them and seriously, I have not eaten

a store-bought marshmallow since I tried the recipe for the first time several years ago.

They melt in your mouth. They are soft and supple. They can be made into any shape with cutters.

But, Today...

they will be pink hearts.

Now not everyone in my family likes popping them in their mouths

as some form of dessert. But, everyone agrees that fresh marshmallows in Hot chocolate is

a definite treat!!!

HOME MADE MARSHMALLOWS

by Alton Brown

Ingredients

• 3 packages unflavored gelatin
• 1 cup ice cold water, divided
• 12 ounces granulated sugar, approximately 1 1/2 cups
• 1 cup light corn syrup
• 1/4 teaspoon kosher salt
• 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
• 1/4 cup confectioners' sugar
• 1/4 cup cornstarch
• Nonstick spray

Directions

Place the gelatin into the bowl of a stand mixer along with 1/2 cup of the water. Have the whisk attachment standing by.

In a small saucepan combine the remaining 1/2 cup water, granulated sugar, corn syrup and salt. Place over medium high heat, cover and allow to cook for 3 to 4 minutes. Uncover, clip a candy thermometer onto the side of the pan and continue to cook until the mixture reaches 240 degrees F, approximately 7 to 8 minutes. Once the mixture reaches this temperature, immediately remove from the heat.
Turn the mixer on low speed and, while running, slowly pour the sugar syrup down the side of the bowl into the gelatin mixture. Once you have added all of the syrup, increase the speed to high. Continue to whip until the mixture becomes very thick and is lukewarm, approximately 12 to 15 minutes. Add the vanilla during the last minute of whipping. While the mixture is whipping prepare the pans as follows.

For regular marshmallows:

Combine the confectioners' sugar and cornstarch in a small bowl. Lightly spray a 13 by 9-inch metal baking pan with nonstick cooking spray. Add the sugar and cornstarch mixture and move around to completely coat the bottom and sides of the pan. Return the remaining mixture to the bowl for later use.

When ready, pour the mixture into the prepared pan, using a lightly oiled spatula for spreading evenly into the pan. Dust the top with enough of the remaining sugar and cornstarch mixture to lightly cover. Reserve the rest for later. Allow the marshmallows to sit uncovered for at least 4 hours and up to overnight.
Turn the marshmallows out onto a cutting board and cut into 1-inch squares using a pizza wheel dusted with the confectioners' sugar mixture. Once cut, lightly dust all sides of each marshmallow with the remaining mixture, using additional if necessary. Store in an airtight container for up to 3 weeks

I hope you have a chance to make these little dreams sometime soon.

Happy Valentine's Day

Pre-game Pizza Muffins- if they last until tomorrow!

I'm just about to run out the door to a crab feed in town, but wanted to post some food I am making ahead for the Super Eating Bowl. I found this recipe, but of course, couldn't leave well-enough alone to follow their recipe on Pinterest, soooo....
Pepperoni Pizza Muffins:

• 3C. AP flour
• 3 t. baking powder
• 2 1/2 T. Italian Seasoning
• 1/2 t. salt
• 1/2 t. red pepper flakes
• 3 Cups of whole milk ( I actually used 1 can of evaporated milk and 1 cup 2%)
• 4 eggs
• 4 C. Mozzarella Cheese
• 1 C. Pepperoni, either chunks or sliced that has been cut up
• about 1/2 cup store bought pizza or spaghetti sauce
• about 1/2 C. Parmesan Cheese finely grated (fresh)

Preheat the oven to 375 degrees. Spray 36 muffin liners with a little Pam. I didn't do this and they all stuck to the liners, so go ahead. In a large bowl, mix flour, baking powder, Italian seasoning, salt, and red pepper flakes. Mix milk and eggs together then add to the flour mixture and whisk until all is moisened. Add the pepperoni and cheese and stir. Line Muffin tins with sprayed liners. Use 1/4 cup to scoop mixture into the tins. Take about 1 t. of sauce and gently put in the middle of the mixture in each tin. Bake for about 25-27 min. Remove and sprinkle each with Parmesan Cheese. It makes 36 regular size muffins for a crowd.

Ok, I'm off to enjoy some crab and hammer the heck out of the little suckers.

Donuts Combat Depression....news at 11

Even better, these donuts are easy peasy.

After the last few weeks of me dieting, my kids are a little droopy.

My husband is trying to cut calories as well so to make things easy on him and I, I found this recipe from Paula Deen. Yup. Good ole' canned buscuits.

Its really quite easy.

Lay out the eight buscuits and cut small center holes in each.

Heat oil in a dutch oven to about 350 degrees.

Drop the donut/buscuit dough into the oil, and turn once it's brown.

(the first one was not done all the way through, so I turned the heat down a bit and cooked the others longer)

After I removed them from the oil, I placed them on a paper towel.

I used 1/2 C. sugar and mixed with 1 T. cinnamon in a bowl to then coat the each donut.

Yummy. I ate a few of the holes, which was cheating on the diet, but just what I needed to hit the craving but not ruin the whole day!!!!!

I seriously could have eaten several hearing all the "Oh man,"s and the "So good!"s.

Back to the leans and greens.

Recipe that warrents a party!

I rarely make something in the kitchen and then say, " I need to have a party just to serve THESE!"
But, I said it today.

Who wouldn't want a party with these beauties.

I found the recipe, sort of, on Pinterest. I kept clicking on the picture, but no recipe came up. I researched further with google and found that it was as easy as pie...so to speak.

What do ya need?

White Cake Mix

Neon Gel Food Coloring

Some sort of white frosting

Rainbow Sprinkles

I made the cake as directed. Then I separated the batter into 5 small dishes. The Neon allowed me to make pink, orange, green and purple. I had to use a blue from my other gel food coloring pack in the pantry. I used liners that were a little different so I could see how each would react. 6 were a wilton white liner, and the other four were regular liners. Yes, the recipe only made 10.

I placed a little less than 1 T of each color directly on top of each other in this order:

purple

blue

green

orange

pink

They turned out lovely. Actually the smaller liners worked better, just be careful not to overfill.

I did frost them with just a plain vanilla frosting (Pastry Pride) which I whipped up after they cooled, and then sprinkled them with rainbow sprinkles.

I was in a hurry so I packed them up in a shoe box and hauled them to a basketball game at my kids High School. I gave several out to the delight of many high schooler. My friends son, who just finished playing and was famished, said they were the best cupcakes he had ever had.....it's amazing what a little pizzazz can do to a plain white cake mix!!!!

And....we're off...busy night meals

If you are married, with kids, with a life, you know how some days just get away from you and before you know it you're standing in front of the fridge with the door open at 5:00pm saying, "Why didn't I do this earlier?"
So what's your standby dinner.
Sometimes I go Mexi-German and have Chili Smothered baked Potatoes. It's crazy easy and I can actually get something done while those potatoes are baking for an hour in the oven.

Simple Chili:
1 lb. ground beef
2 cans diced tomatoes
1 can black beans
1/2 onion diced
2 cloves of fresh garlic minced
2 T. Chili Powder
2 t. salt
fresh ground black pepper to taste
cayenne pepper to your liking

Dice onion and mince garlic. Saute onion until translucent. Add garlic and saute for 1 min. Add beef and cook until no longer pink, then drain the fat. Add the rest of the ingredients and simmer for about 10- 15 min.

Bake one clean russet potato for each person at 400 degrees for 1 hour.
Serve chili over split potatoes and add grated cheese.
Decent with a little fruit to go along with it all.
What's a go to dinner you make on busy nights?

Avacados on Bruschetta with Sardines! Yes, Sardines.

If you read an earlier post about my New Year's Resolution (don't like that word) you will know that I promised to eat better this coming year. I also am starting to see some very visible lines around the eyes and am hoping that this recipe will aid in better skin and heart health with it's high Omega 3 oils. If you are not a fan of fish...look away, and move along.
If you are curious, read on if you dare.
This is an Alton Brown inspired recipe. He calls it Sherried Sardine Toast. Too uninspired that name!!!
I will tell you that I thought I might get this down and then see it again, since I've never consumed a sardine.
Good news. It all played well with my tummy and actually had a very smooth, creamy texture and salty taste that wasn't overwhelming. All flavors melded together well.
So I dare you to try it!!!!

Sardine Avacado Bruschetta (makes 4)

2 (3.75-ounce 2-layer) tins brisling sardines in olive oil

2 tablespoons finely chopped parsley leaves, divided

1 tablespoon sherry vinegar

1/4 teaspoon lemon zest, reserve the lemon and cut into 4 wedges

Freshly ground black pepper

4 (1/2-inch) thick slices crusty bread, such as sourdough, country loaf or rye

1 ripe Hass avocado

Coarse sea salt

 

Drain the oil from 1 tin of sardines into a small bowl and set aside. Drain the oil from the other tin into another small bowl and whisk in 1 tablespoon of parsley, vinegar, lemon zest, and black pepper, to taste. Add the sardines, stir to combine and set aside for up to 1 hour.
After 45 minutes, put a rack 3-inches from the broiler and heat the oven to the broiler setting on high. Brush each slice of bread on 1 side with the reserved oil. Put the bread, oil side up, onto a cooling rack set inside a half sheet pan and broil 2 to 3 minutes or until golden brown and crisp.

Halve the avocado and remove the pit. Smash the flesh in each half with a fork.
Spread the avocado evenly onto the toasted bread. Top evenly with the sardines. Pour any remaining dressing on top and garnish with the remaining parsley.
Season lightly with sea salt and serve with lemon wedges.

Potato Pie...Oh My!!!

With potatoes on my mind and pie dough in the freezer from a previous day, I set out to experiment with making a pie worthy of dinner but not too difficult time-wise. Voila! Sausage Potato Torte!

 The family went gaga because I taught them well that anytime you put a pie crust around dinner it's gonna rock. I served it with a simple salad. I could have used bacon like the original recipe , but didn't have any so go crazy if you prefer a different form of pig.

Sausage Potato Torte : (adapted slightly from Brown Eyed Baker)

2 pie crusts
3 german sausage, fresh, casings removed and cooked until no longer pink
3 medium baking potatoes, peeled and sliced thin
Salt & freshly ground black pepper
¼ cup grated Swiss cheese
2/3 cup heavy cream
¼ teaspoon dried thyme
1 egg yolk, whisked with a splash of water

1. Preheat the oven to 375°F.
2. Roll out the 1st pie dough to fit a large, deep dish pie plate. I sliced the potatoes very thin.  Working in circles, arrange the potato slices in the pie crust to cover the bottom. Season with salt and pepper, crumble 1/3 of the sausage over the potatoes, and add a little cheese. Repeat the layers two more times. The pan should be nearly full. Top with the remaining shredded cheese.
3. Whisk the dried thyme into the cream and slowly pour the cream around and over the entire pie, allowing it to seep down between the potato slices.
4. Roll out the remaining disk of refrigerated dough. Cover the pie with the dough and crimp the edges closed. Brush the top and edges of the crust with egg wash. Make a few slits in the center of the top crust, for the steam to escape, and put the pie pan on a baking sheet.
5. Bake the torte until the crust is browned and crispy and the potatoes are cooked through, 50 to 60 minutes. If the crust edges get too brown, cover them with some strips of aluminum foil. Remove the pie from the oven and let rest at least 15 minutes before serving.

This German girl was happy with the results!!!

Resolution Smesolution

I'm with Calvin!!!

Honestly, I don't make them because mine usually come from shallow motives like wanting to look good, so they never last. This year I want to be healthy. I gave up on skinny. I'm a type 1, juvenille diabetic and have been for the last 27 years. I'm a lazy diabetic, because I'm tired of counting carbs and even forget to take my insulin after meals. This will get me into trouble in the near future and my feet will probably fall off or my eyes will rot and fall out since I don't pay close enough attention. Well, that's changing this year.

I sought out, after being challenged by a friend, foods that would be high octane fuel suppliers to my body instead of energy and fat suppliers.

I needed some help, so I looked to my favorite cook, Alton Brown, for some suggestions. He has lost 50 lbs. and still manages to maintain his cooking habits.

Here is what he follows:

Daily:
Fruits
Whole Grains
Leafy Veggies
Nuts
Carrots
Green Tea
3Xs Per Week:
Oily Fish
Yogurt
Broccoli
Sweet Potato
Avocado
1X Per Week:
Red Meat
Pasta
Dessert
Alcohol
Never:
Fast Food
Soda
Processed Meals
Canned Soups
Anything labeled “Diet”

Rules:
Eat Breakfast Every Day
Eat Slowly
Purple foods are high in antioxidants, try to use them: pomegranite, Acai juice, concord grape juice, blueberries, blackberries,
Try soy milk in smoothies for extra protein, low fat and B12 included in it. Make double and freeze it for a frozen treat later.
For Smoothies: add 4 oz of 3 frozen fruits, 4 oz. of soy milk and juice each,

Sardine Treats:
Sardines or Bristling are good for you and can be combined with lemon juice, olive oil from one of the cans of fish, lemon zest, sherry vinegar, fresh parsley. Wisk. Fold in 2 cans of drained fish.Let marinate. Set oven on High broil.Brush 4 slices of french or sourdough bread with the oil from the other can. Broil bread for 2 - 3 minutes. Mash one avocado and spread on toast. Place fish on top and garnish with parsley, lemon juice and sea salt. You only get to have one of those, so don’t eat all 4 at once.

Nuts:
Almonds are excellent

Nut Treat:
Set oven at 250 degrees
Put 1t. of olive and seasame oils in pan and heat
Add one pound of whole almonds
Cook for 5 min. Add 1T. of soy sauce and Worchestershire sauce each.
Cook for 1 min. more, until it seems to have used up liquid and is sticky.
Put 1 t. ground ginger and 1t. salt in a bowl and add the almonds and toss.
Place on a baking sheet lined and put in over for 20 min.
Eat only 1 oz, 1 to 2 times per day.

Now I know that most people look at the sardine bruschetta and think, gag! But I am willing to try it. It's hard to get fish that everyone will eat, so I can handle trying it.

What he doesn't mention is portion sizes. That's where it all goes down hill or hell, for me. Cutting down portions, drinking ungodly amounts of water and consistent exercise are the deal breakers, so I need to not think of them as the enemy.

So, here I go.....

Wish me well....

Say a prayer....

Don't invite me over for scones or muffins or anything like that........THANKS

 

Stuffed Chicken Fried Chicken, Southern Style

I wanted a dish that I could use my packaged stuffing that I hadn't made at Christmas so I thought of making stuffed chicken and using a peppery-white, southern gravy over the top. Sinfull yes, but delicious.

5 large skinless, boneless chicken breasts pounded flat

1 prepared box of stuffing mix, follow box directions

2 eggs, whisked with a little water

flour to dredge

breadcrumbs to dredge, panko or homemade

4 T. oil for frying

I pounded the breasts flat between two pieces of plastic wrap adding water to my flat mallet as I poiunded. Then I put a heaping spoonful of prepared stuffing in the middle of each breast. I folled up each breast with the sides first and then finishing with each end tucked over each other and secured with toothpicks. I then dredged each in flour, coated then with egg, and finally rolled in breadcrumbs.

I heated a skillet with oil and fryed them on each side and end until browned.

In the meantime, I heated the oven to 400 degrees. Once fried, I put them in the oven to finish for 20

minuets. They were very tasty, but I must warn, it was a huge portion. I only finished half of mine. Oh, goodie. Leftovers!!!! I served them with a country gravy, the extra stuffing that was baked according to box directions, and some steamed broccoli. Now I make the gravy with a rue and milk, but actually it doesn't need gravy. DELISH.

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Rolling on into Christmas like it was no big deal....

I've just noticed! It's almost Dec. 1st and I haven't complained once that Christmas is too commercialized or overdone yet!

This is an accomplishment for me.

I guess I feel blessed during this time.

Even though my husband is stressed beyond belief, I feel less stress than ever. yikes. That's an invitation right there for it to be heaped on, LOL.

Yesterday, since Sheffie is feeling pressure at work, I prayed all day for him, off and on. Wow. What a difference that made. I know he had it rough, but I must admit that I felt so much lighter all day.

No thoughts of pressure or when am I going to have time to get a tree, or put up decorations or buy presents earlier. Nope.

Jeremy, a senior this year, is blindly going about the season while we RANT ON AND ON about how he needs to get essays done for college scholarship applications, but none of that yesterday. And he worked on it yesterday too. Hey! Maybe I don't need to rant? ha.

Yep I like this peace and joy thing that goes along with prayer. I think I'll keep it up!

Why "What I Wore Wednesday" Doesn't Work For Me!

Exhibit A

Reason 1: This pic was taken looking into my sliding glass door in the back of the house, hence, I have no full length mirror.

Reason 2: I wore this yesterday, well, at least in the afternoon.

Reason 3: All....All my clothes are UGLY! Not just these people. I'm in a faze, and have been for quite a while...it's called "Over 45 and shouldn't try to look like I'm 20".

But, my friend Denise always looks so cute. So Since I am avoiding this trend in blogging, you may go over there and visit. She has style. I do not.

The List:

Everyone has a list. Where this craze came from I have no idea, but I feel compelled (by peer pressure) to do the same. Actually we say every summer that we are going to do more as a family. It's time to really write it down.
So here we go. I will try to find a cool chalkboard or whiteboard like Denise or Kristen to post it and check them off. Go check theirs out.

Here we go:
Go bowling weekly
Make homemade icecream
Go to the secret swinging bridge spot in Yosemite that no one knows about
Play scrabble as a family
Walk 3 miles at least once or twice a week as a family
Make a movie for church youth group
Help with an Eagle Scout Project
Raise Meat Chickens from chicks
Make pesto
Visit Monterey at least once to see the whales
Host a dessert party where my kids make the food
Rent a party boat at the lake
Go camping with UK
Get a refresher course for SCUBA diving (Jules)
SCUBA in Monterey
Make a duvet cover (yikes)
Dinner 8 with church friends (3xs)
Cupcake decorating class for Meg and Me
Stargaze from Sentinel Dome
Fireworks at Bass Lake
Kiss my hubby for 7 sec. everyday (great goal for me NOT kids)

Removing an organ...sorta

It's been quite a while since my last post, but I do have excuses. None of them good mind you, but I have them. Well, in all seriousness, I have nodules. Nodules on my Thyroid gland.

After this week, I don't have any more nodules or gland.

Yes that's right.

I agreed to have them, it, removed forever and ever, amen.

I have been hanging around the house the last 3 days waiting for the feeling of sluggishness or overtiredness (is that a word?) to hit me. But alas, nothing. In fact, I feel quite energetic. I have been taking a synthetic thyroid hormone replacement and it's not bad!!!!!!

Well, not so far. In fact, if my incision were not sore, I'd have to say I'm feeling on top of the world.

Don't you wish you could replace or remove parts of you that you just didn't like? And feel great afterward without harm or penalty?

My oldest son is learning to drive. My daughter had her first experience today behind the wheel. I have come to realize that the mom-behind-the-wheel needs a transplant or a complete removal!!!!!

The person I sometimes become behind the wheel of a car is not out there....in full view of two teenagers and it's ugly sometimes. I still don't understand why I get so frustrated, but I do.

I need to have that removed, right away.

I need a synthetic replacement until I can produce my own attitude worth having in the car with them.

It's one of those areas in life that demands constant tuning, redirecting, and releasing control over. Yep. It needs to be yanked.

Hopefully, Jesus never had to drive the chariot. My guess is he had to drive in some way.

All I am asking for today is forgiveness for almost running that bike rider down today. And, a little interceding from a fellow driver. Thanks!

Armor for the Weak

You never know when the moment will hit.

You never know when she will feel the full impact of the world.

You never know when the impact will bring you to your knees.

Last night I witnessed teen after teen receive awards and we all clapped.

Sometimes the names were repeated over and over and the applause rose.

Often, I thought, "Who are these kids?"

Apparently my daughter was listening, and not talking through it.

Apparently she heard those same names being praised over and over and felt, in her heart, that she didn't have much purpose or talent or gift.

Haven't you been there? Don't you remember?

When you first felt you didn't measure up? I do.

I felt it all my life.

At first it's an inkling that they are special. Then it's hearing them being praised by someone you admire. Then you realize: they have IT.

Of course, you can't quite describe it, but you feel it. It weighs heavy. It pulls, and measures, and reflects a distorted picture that looks so similar to who you really are, but not quite what you want to see.

Don't you remember what it looked like?

I do. I've seen it off and on my whole life.

And, for the first time, the picture, painted with long strokes, finally becomes clear and vibrant.

I don't measure up.

My daughter saw herself in that painting last night after a banquet honoring students whom she has eaten lunch with, rode in the car with, stood next to in line, and sat behind in class. She saw that she...didn't measure up to THAT standard.

My heart ached as I heard her express on the ride home that she wasn't really GOOD at anything, just OK. Out of her came a dark, long breath that spewed disappointment, hurt, failure, unrealized dreams. Oh, how I ached.

Haven't we all heard the liar. Haven't we all entertained his theatrical play, weaving lies with truth, until the two became one. My heart bursts.

She, with her happy-heart, witty banter, and ever-loving friendship, saw only her faults.

I drew a long breath before I exposed the lies, one by one.

But, last night, she couldn't hear it.

She felt the sting of rejection that closed off the confident young lady.

I felt that same sting, but many years earlier than she. Even though I had carefully given her instruction and even though I praised her talent...it all dropped to the ground like an unused toy. Forgotten.

Yes. This young woman is experiencing the bitter herbs that the world, the deceiver, serves to us along with sweet tea and cake.

It was a difficult moment for this mommy-at-heart who is a fierce lion when it comes to her cubs. It brought tears for hours as I hugged her goodnight. Even harder? Knowing that this is a long line in her course of becoming a grown-up woman. The line will extend her whole life with the deceiver whispering in her ear.

Prepare me Lord Jesus for this next phase.

Prepare our Armor together.

Forge her a sheild with your promises, a sword of swift return, and a helmet that drowns out the shouts of the world.

Prepare us together, because I will NEVER let her be defeated by a lie as long as breath lives in my lungs.

The war has just begun for her and I. We will stand united.

What happens when love and intimacy die away...

No, I'm not splitting up with my husband or anything. That is still all good.

What I am speaking of is an intimacy with God.

In the last year, I have felt a real distance coming in my relationship with Him. In fact, I have had trouble with even picking up my bible. It saddened me and shocks me all at the same time, and I keep saying to myself, "What is it?".

Intimacy builds in marrage when you invest in the life and in love of that person. Communing with their heart becomes something you seek. Many might put a sexual intimacy in this same catagory. But, for women, we know that the sexual intimacy must come through our hearts first. Letting our hearts be vulnerable. Letting our hearts cry out for that person to really know it.

It has finally hit me that I haven't cried out for God to know my heart in this last year.

I slowly closed that avenue off as I saw a strain in our financial health, in a difficult relationship with my children earlier, and with the strain of it all...eventually a hurt deep inside by a friendship that kind of through me over the edge. I simply couldn't pick up my bible. I couldn't pray. Nothing came out that resembled hunger for my relationship with the only one who could really heal my hurt. Nothing.

I couldn't pick up my bible, but through the persuasion of a persistent friend, I picked up Ann Voskamp's book, 1000 gifts. This beautiful book shouldn't have been a substitute for God's word. It shouldn't take it's place, but He used it to draw me to him inch by inch.

You know how when you're mad at your husband or he's done something to urk you, you kinda want to just stomp off? Then pretty soon the little urk becomes apathy and you have forgotten how to reach for a kiss or hug. You don't even miss it. It's just a numb existence at that point without a feeling. Well, that's where I had been. Numb.

Well, I am slowly emerging. Sometimes it requires a little pin-pricking to get a feeling back. Sometimes it requires a long-hug. God, my gracious God, has been waiting for me patiently. Sometimes he allow me to get a poke, a sting, by something I read. "OUCH" as I read that my selfish, ungratefulness has brought me the lack of joy. Then, He turns around and washes a deep, long-hug as I weep at my kitchen sink.

It's plain weird for me to make a connection with God as if he's a husband, but in this case that's what I feel. He want express his love gently, as I need it. But, I think he's waiting for me to let down all the defenses. He's waiting for that final giving of myself to him. I'm almost there.

Letting go of lies, disappointments and hurt is like getting your teeth clean. I hate the scaping off and the way it makes me so uncomfortable. But, I love running my teeth over the smooth, clean edges and the lovely clean taste.

I need a good scaping and God is going to work taking the callouses off.

I'm waiting for the emergent new heart.

So is it wrong?

I blame William and Kate.

I would not normally do it but I found that after watching the royal wedding a couple of weeks ago that I now want to eat Brie cheese all the time.

Ok, back up.
That day I made scones and tea and waited until my daughter returned home from school so that she and I could watch together. I found that while I was waiting for her to return home, I craved it. I wanted it. I didn't have it.
No matter. Scones and tea were soon served and life went on it's merry way.
But now, I want to have it all the time.
This is not the sort of craving that just comes around and then is never thought of until months later. It's an everyday crave.

Here is the problem. I had some wine on Sat. and also had my fair share of brie (which I bought to go with the wine, and only with the wine).
Today, I had it for lunch. On crackers. Without the wine.
What next? I may be dipping into it now until its all gone. Everyday. Maybe twice a day.

I thinking that a fast with only veges for a day or so is in order.
Would that help with cravings?
If you have had a craving that didn't go away, what did you do?

Multitudes on Mondays, Blessings Galore...

... A walk around the lake in the crisp morning air

... A blue heron at the blue heron restaurant, funny

... A dog always happy to see me no matter what

... The hat covers my un-showered hair

... A text of encouragement from Corrine

... A sore muscle, which means it got worked!

... A new fence that came as a result of the sweat of a good man

... Monday, all day, at home with my boy

blessed by...

...a smiling clerk who was sweet
...red, sweet strawberries
...a young man on a trip of his own today
...a girl excited by her day and so willing to share every bit of it with me
...help crossing the parking lot, even if it was because I am perceived to be "old" by my 10 yr.old
...iris budding into purple pleasure
...chocolate tidbits called Flicks
...soothing music while cooking
...reading blogs of encouragement from fellow sojourners

But you love me anyway...

When I hear these lyrics I am reminded that it WAS my sin that nailed Jesus to the cross. This was the very thought that caused my heart to turn at age nine while I physically nailed nails to a cross one Sunday Night at an evening service. My youth pastor talked about personal sin and responsibility, and I remember the guilt convicted me to tears as I hammered.
Many times I have carried that conviction and guilt throughout my life. I believed that my sin was so dark that I wasn't sure that Jesus could ever see past it.

This song brings me the peace I need. I haven't forgotten that my sin nailed him, but I know that his love reaches past that sin. Not only has he conquered it, but he reaches out, takes my hand and says, "I love you." I'm not "kinda a Christian". It's all that matters in who I am.
It's like being kinda pregnant. Either you are, or you aren't. He grace loves, erases and embraces that old sin...and then discards it.

All Things Crepe-y!

I don't know what it is about these little packages of love and fruity goodness, but I know that I must cook them and then...eat them.

I'm really trying to eat a low carb and calorie diet right now, but it has brought out some pregnant-like cravings that I just can't stand.

Crepes and Blintzes are all I want.

I want them with sour cream at noon.

I want to eat them on the moon.

I want their

yummy, fruity glaze.

I want them on all even days.

It tortures me! I need to be done with this low carb diet.

Or, I need to just make a whole big bunch and take them to someone else's house and watch them eat them. No, I don't think I could resist.

What tortures you with cravings?